Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Limbo Land

Life as we know it is always changing. Change is something I typically do not do well though I have come a long way. The last few weeks have been an emotional rollercoaster of change as MoylanMayhem has taken a whole new meaning.

We are packing up and leaving the only life we have known as a married couple. B is taking a job with the Missouri ANG very, very soon. Like, he isn’t even back from his TDY and will be leaving shortly after his return. Which means, I am the one that is really packing up and able to get things done.

I teeter between excited about the move and completely bummed and scared about leaving GTF. It is the only place we have lived in our adult lives and we have had so many milestones and events happen while we have been here. I am extremely sad about leaving behind my co-workers and a lot of my clients. Some I have been auditing for the entire 7 years and some I practically move into their offices for awhile and will truly miss seeing them every year.

Plus, selling the house!! Eek! I can tell it is already going to be an experience I am not going to enjoy. It already has me stressed and we haven’t even listed it yet.

I will also go on record and say it is really hard to plan your last days at an office when you don’t know when the last day is. It feels so weird saying this will be my last tax party, last out of town audit, last time eating at a favorite Mexican place at said audit, last, last, last….

Ultimately, I think this is a good move for our family, but at the same time I am clinging to all that I have ever known. I am scared to job hunt, house hunt, pick a new town to live in, make new friends and having to fill up with gas more than once a month.

Funnily, I can bounce from one emotion and back in a matter of minutes during the day, so that is not helping the fact that all of this is happening. It is however helping me purge things from our home without much regret. Oy Vey! On the plus side, I am actually figuring out the things we use most often and a lot of the things I am packing we could probably live without anyway.

But as they say, life goes on, and we have to adapt to overcome. All in due time I say.


Liz said...

oh my gosh! I had NO idea! This will be such a great adventure for you, I know it!